So…
So, here I am. Writing another blog.
Okay, comment with your letters, letters with all your emotions spilled out into one piece. Or as many as you wish to write. Write the letters to people who you want to know exactly how you feel about them. They’re completely anonymous & you don’t have to mention any names.
I’ll go first
Dear You.
It’s been over a year, I’ve never been certain that breaking up with you was the right thing to do, I don’t think- now- that I was ever actually over you, I tried. I really did. I tried my hardest to get over you but I don’t think I managed it. So, I just moved on… I think I still had feelings for you up until very recently to be completely honest with myself. But I moved on completely and only now am I facing exactly what I felt for you all these months we haven’t been together. I mean, we’ve been best friends for ever, and so I thought my feelings for you were purely friendship. Of course they weren’t, anyone who’s got any amount of wit about them could tell you that. But recently we’ve been so distant, and at first it hurt, hurt like hell. I cried about it and didn’t know what the hell was happening. You gave me hope after that, we had this one really long talk just like we used to but when we started talking about what our life is like now it made me realise, you don’t actually give a damn about me now, even though I still care about you and if you’re doing okay, I’m pretty sure you don’t think the same. But it’s made me realise, this time apart, that I don’t need you like I used too, don’t get me wrong I still need you, but not so much and I hope that maybe not needing you at all is just around the corner…
All my love, Joanna x
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December 10, 2008 at 11:37 pm (letter, quotes) (blog, comment, hate, letter, love, quotes, wow, youtube)
Why must you be so bloody confusing all the time.
You ignore me for ages, and by the time I admit it to myself and start to at least attempt to let go, you’re right back in my life again.
I need you to help me okay? It can’t go on like this with you always confusing me and never being able to decide whether or not you want to be in my life.
As much as I’d love to say that next time you walk away I won’t be here when you turn around; I know I will be, I have this annoying thing about me, and it’s that I can’t let you go, ever.
You’re my best friend in the entire world and I’m trying desperately to let this go, so help me.
If you want to be in my life please don’t leave again, you don’t know the effect you have on me. You don’t know… not one little bit.
And if you don’t want to be in my life then just leave, go, completely cut yourself off from me. It’ll hurt me like hell but at least then I’ll know for certain. I can’t spend my time wondering… I can’t…
Leave if you want; I don’t know what I’d do without you, but don’t be here when you don’t want too be…
If you’re going to stay, you’re in it for good, I don’t know maybe that’ll make you wanna leave more, but you need to know that if you’re staying now, you’re staying my best friend forever, what ever happens.
So be clear… please.
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