because somethings have to be done.
so… tomorrow the decision has to be done :/ fuck.
who thought such a decision would have to be based on one time, well it’s not just one time, but I am praying beyond belief that I feel something, even if it’s small. I’m not throwing away the best thing that’s ever happened to me if there’s any hope that I can save it. It’d be a waste, I want to fight for this. This has been a much to big a part of my life to just dissapear now.
I just pray I don’t see him and feel nothing.
i need someone who’s gonna set me straight because no one has ever cared enough about me to try.
^mhmm. >.< i need some help here. i need someone to tell me exactly how i feel, and why i feel it. and why things can’t just stay the same. it would be so much easier :/
<3
I just want to cry and cry and cry.
so, an update >.<
fuck, my heart has really been messing me around lately, like, seriously.
it hurts, a lot. and i don’t wanna go making any rash decisions, because idk whether or not i’d regret them.
I hate this; so much =/ I shouldn’t be doubting myslf.
