yeah..me:)
I live my life trying to figure out what everyone and everything means, I over analyze everything you’ll ever say and don’t expect me to tell you everything. I only trust certain people and that’s never going to change. I bottle up my own emotions and tell people off when they do it. I make awful jokes and only Emily laughs at them, but even she knows when to stop laughing. Busted were the best band ever, but sadly they’re not around anymore. When people first meet me they think I’m the loud gobby one out of the group… they’re right. First impressions mean a lot to me even though I know they shouldn’t. Though if I think you’re worth it I’ll try and get to know you. I love acoustic music with strong lyrics.
rant. rant. rant.
fine, i’ll admit it. I miss you, I miss you so much it physically hurts sometimes. You’ve meant so much to me and now it’s finally hit me. I have a terrifying feeling that at the moment I’m with the wrong guy and it should have always been me and you. I’m feeling vunerable and that scares me more than anything in the world. I don’t know whether I’m in love with you or what. I just know that now, I should be missing my boyfriend but I can’t seem to get the fact that I haven’t see you out of my mind. I miss you. =/
ohmy this is crap :[
Let’s start this from the beginning shall we? I’m with this guy atm, he’s amazing and he loves me for me… I don’t think I’m in love with him like he is with me, which i feel terrible for but I do really like him so I’m not going to break up with him. He’s amazing but I just don’t feel that strongly about him.
But what’s really got to me is, the one guy who I fell head over heels in love with; well, he was never in love with me… And tbh, that has really gotten to me. And I just can’t believe it… I mean I know I ended it and everthing but that was just because I couldn;t risk losing him as a friend. He means the world to me, but knowing that he never felt about me the way I felt about him… well it hurts you know :[ it really does.
yeah
I know I said no more quotes but sometimes i’ll put one up here just because i can.
how can you move on if you are still living in the past? and how can you step forward, leaving the past behind, if you can’t even begin to forgive what the past holds? how can you love someone for who they are,
yet want to hate them for what they’ve done? i guess that’s what it boils down to is this – there are always
those defining moments, times that makes us or breaks us, build us or tear us apart, help us progress further or stop us dead in our tracks. and for whichever way we may choose, there’s a consequence of equal
value. it’s a true test of what we stand for, where we came from, & where we are going. these are moments that we live for, breathe for, & fight for. these are the defining moments that leave imprints forever in our hearts, making our souls forever. these are choices that could bring you one step closer to forever or leaving you hostage to the past. i guess in order to move on from the past you must learn to forgive it. and forgiving may mean letting go.
nmmmkay?
what? i like it xD
It`s the worst feeling in the world to love & hate someone all at the same time. And it`s hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It`s funny but stupid how you want everything & nothing at the same time. It`s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, & when you want to move on but you`re stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go & you can`t decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don`t know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them farther & farther away. It`s so hard to think back to how things used to be & look at it now and realize that things are different & they may never be the same. You tell yourself it`s not worth it, but if it really didn`t matter, you wouldn`t spend so much time thinking about it.
End.
This site is done.
it is now officially my private ranting blog.
go to xanga bitches. (:
kthxbi.
